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Sunday, June 8, 2014

Here's To Now


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Mt. Batulao, Philippines

“You never know where the world is gonna take you. So I’m just trying to be open and present in every moment I’m in and seeing where that kind of leads me. And just one with what feels right as well, because I think that’s what’s important. Rather than being ‘this is my goal and I’m gonna work so hard to make that’. It’s like sometimes if you have such tunnel vision, you miss everything else that’s around you and things can’t happen. It’s good to be open. I think your passions carry you through. And if you’re passionate about things, it will carry you to the next events. But I don’t want to get ever too stuck on having one objective that’s gonna kind of blind you to something that could happen that would even be more rad.” 
- Kassia Meador

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I have a confession.

I’m letting go of control. I’m letting go of having South America as my only goal for the next few years. You know why? Because it has made me so uptight and so worried about the future. I’ve been so scared and hesitant of doing and experiencing new things, because it might distract me from making South America happen.

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Mt. Gulugod Baboy

This year I somehow learned to let go. I said yes to weekend climbs. I went out more to have dinner and coffee with friends. I went home more to my parents, and tried to spend more quality time with them. The need for this seemed more imminent lately since my father is turning 60 next year.

I spent more than what I’ve budgeted – the BUDGET that would allow me to leave for South America at X month/year with an X amount of money in my savings account.

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Mt. Batulao, Philippines

But I gained new friends and had the best time. I’ve been able to spend more time doing what I love –trekking and climbing mountains, and taking photos.

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Mt. Batulao

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Mt. Gulugod Baboy

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Mt. Batulao

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Mt. Gulugod Baboy

I’ve been able to swim and cross 25m in a pool. I have somehow started to face my fear of deep waters and learned freestyle swimming. I tried last year but defeated myself and was unsuccessful. So this year I enrolled in a proper class and actually made progress.

I’ve focused more on today than the X month/year that I can finally leave for South America. The goal is still definitely there, I still aim to live minimally. But I’ve let go of focusing too much on it that I’m missing out on how I can be happy and content every single day. It doesn’t bother me that much anymore that it’s getting delayed a month, or two, or even more.

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Mt. Batulao

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Mt. Batulao

I’m more open now to saying yes, yes to travel planning by friends as long as it’s still within a reasonable budget. I figured it’s time to travel with friends again and create new memories with them.

I’ve learned that yes, the strict discipline I did in preparing for my 2011 Big Trip worked so well that I was able to quit my job and travel for five months straight in less than a year. But what I learned from that whole trip was to be open to new and unexpected experiences and chance encounters, and to enjoy what’s only here and now.

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Mt. Batulao

So it’s what I’m trying to do now. Continue working and saving up for that goal, but making today more a priority than worrying about the future.

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Mt. Batulao

"There are no coincidences...everything is as it's meant to be, and if you accept that, you can get through everything."

So here’s to now, going with the flow, and being open to new things, and opening up myself to new experiences that will allow me to learn and grow.